Tuesday, March 23, 2010

A Bright Light Has Dimmed


I am so saddened about Susan's passing. A bright light has dimmed on this earthly plane.

I met her in the early 70's, but can't remember where--possibly at the library where I volunteered. She was one of those rare beings that I will remember with great fondness for the rest of my life.

I was living in Texas in the 80's. We'd kept in touch and got together when she came to visit Connie in Dallas. I'm pretty sure it was Dallas, but it could have been Austin where I lived prior to that.

We went out for one of those Sunday all you can eat brunches at a Marriot-type place. The group consisted of Susan, me, Connie  and a friend whom I vaguely remember as being in the business of turning over real estate. There could have been other people with us, but my recollection of who was there is rather vague.

However, my memories of the occasion are very clear. It was one of the most memorable days of my life. And believe me, I've lived!  It was one of those magic times when everyone was "on." And, of course, each story triggered another one, even more hilarious than the one preceding it.

I remember all of us laughing so much that our sides ached.  Other people were looking at us like we were crazy, but I seem to remember them laughing with us after awhile.  I may be a bit foggy about who was there,  but I'll never forget the pure joy we shared that day.

It was like that whenever I saw Susan.

My heart is with you and the family.

-- Sue Story

Mentor to My Spirit

On my daily trips to the Woodstock Post Office in these later years, I would many times pass Lowell Bair’s car in the parking lot. Sometimes he would just be preparing to go into the Post Office and I would get to greet both Lowell and Susan. Or sometimes Susan would be napping as she waited for Lowell. (She was in a great battle with agrave illness within her own body.) At those times, I would move slowly and just look at that beautiful, vibrant friend and think about her. Memories from an overladen memory basket marked “Effects.” Unique gifts and effects.

We met during her time working in The Woodstock Library. No matter whenever, or whatever our mission, we would always stop for at least a brief exchange and you could bet, that whatever tidbit occurred to her, it would be extraordinary and presented in a most imaginative manner. Innately intelligent, with a will well-nourished and a mind which she fed “with both hands full,” she traveled her life of curiosity.

When her oldest Child, Christian, all these years later tells how wise and “fun” her suggestions usually proved out along the way, ponder here the power of that tribute from a Son to his Mother of all his years!

She was not only knowledgeable and educated but was also astute to all the varied needs the moment might produce.

She operated a “hands-on” bail fund “for her church.” I’m sure she met with everyone who called and offered some colorful word of encouragement and if they would decipher her meaning, the message would be one of both hope and humor, softening the tension in the transaction.

One year she started a little business of her own, hand-chiseling bluestone “memory markers” (grave stones). I wanted one! She asked me what I wished to have on it. I said, “Simple, a line for the mountain and a cloud for the spirit.” That stone waits for me at my family plot at the cusp of the hill at the edge of The Artists Cemetery ... (And that is another Story!) Shortly after Susan delivered the Stone I had a gravestone party. It was fun and I hoped leavened the subject. Misty and Eric wore very sombre mourning clothes; we had hearty refreshments and many interesting friends, and hoped it would be good for her business!

It came to her that Woody Broun must be lonesome since he had lost his family and asked him, “Wouldn’t he like a cat?” Woody was adamant not to take on that responsibility! Would that stop Susan? Oh, no! Now we began the search and looked carefully at every cat that crossed her path.

She found the perfect one and left it close to Woody’s house, obviously wandering homeless and crying with hunger. I would ride over with Susan while she surreptitiously fed the cat, carefully removing all traces of a lunch time “stop.” She wanted Woody to believe in the larger “Deity” or at least a compassionate “Chance.”
Then one day she found empty cat food cans and a water dish and assumed the adoption was completed and she moved on to other missions.

Sometimes she would catch a swim in the Broun’s pond ... such a beautiful sight and so delighted with herself! I thought of her last summer when a friend and I spotted six swimmers with Florida license plates cavorting in Cooper’s Lake. As the authorities drove up, they explained that someone in town had suggested the Lake as a good place to cool off. My friend whispered to me, “I bet someone on the Village Green is having a good laugh right now!”

Susan woulud love that story. Only now, I think I could have called her. So careless of me...what could possibly have been more important? Now all chances are missed and I am missing her completely.

After my second little Son arrived, Susan would come many a Monday for lunch. It was always fun. She approved of the whole idea of the baby and we were all happy. I would prepare a fine lunch and she would bring me stories from the village. She often broght some translations from the French done by her husband, Lowell, to my Father-in-Law, who lived with us after his wife had died. He loved those books and the chance of her sitting over next to him, talking directly to him, laughing together. Made him feel valid and recognized. So my son John knew her presence from his beginning and was astute enough to value her. When she was still driving around she would circle town until she spied me and would invite me to climb into her Jeep and join her in any adventure we might find.

Susan was outgoing and sociable. Like a wild garden, perfect plan and order among haphazardly and gloriously colored “bouquets” of blooms.

Mentor to my spirit, you made me wealthy.

— Jean Lasher Gaede

Knife Throwing

At The Woodstock Library a few weeks ago Gail Godwin reminded me that, in some summers past, a group would get together for pot luck lunch and Knife Throwing. Those of you who knew Susan Bair may have guessed that she had a hand in it and she did. 

On Sunday afternoons people would show up at Lowell and Susan's house for pot luck lunch, conversation and as an aid to digestion (or just plain fun)  -- Knife Throwing. 

A pine plank target was set up parallel to the front of the house. We'd stand back about 20 feet & take turns throwing 1/2 dozen knives at the target. One of the knives was a genuine Harry McEvoy pro-thrower. It came with a very impressive AKTA (American Knife Throwing Alliance) Red White & Blue cross knife shoulder patch. Susan ended up with the patch. 

Knife throwing is a curious art.  It is a staple of circuses, sideshows and noir films. It can be lethal. Part of its' appeal is its very improbability. The odds are against a spinning blade sticking into the target it is thrown at. Part of the fun of the sport is outperforming the odds. 

Lunch, literature and knife throwing: Susan could pull together very different elements and make them suit each other. I was lucky to know her.
— Paul Nelson

A Very Peaceful Moment

I can't say that Susan was a friend around 1963, but I remember one day when Jane was not around, I was in your house with your mother. Maybe it was raining. I sat at a table near a cushioned window seat to the right as you entered the front door of your house. She made me some toast with butter and jelly on it and then went to take a nap. I probably did the same. It was a very peaceful moment. I believed that she hated to be disturbed during naps.

Even though it's natural that she would die after a long illness, I was surprised. I'm sorry for your loss.
— Anne Dardis

There Are No Replacements

For many years Susan was a bright, electric, presence in Woodstock.  She and Lowell lived just up the road...off Mead Mountain Road...when it was a much less traveled road.  If you heard a car coming up Mead Mountain you knew that it was either the Bairs, the Cantines or us....Their house, with the most splendid view over the valley, was approached by a death defyingly steep road ...which both Lowell and Susan took great pleasure in maneuvering in the winter....  As we also had a jeep in those days...(the winters were much snowier & colder) Lowell and Edgar would vie to see who could get up their driveway without sliding off the mountain...luckily it was a stand off...no one lost....

Susan and Lowell, intensely smart and literate (knew everything, read everything) loved puns...had a wonderful mutty dog named Jacques E. Bair...  No further explanation needed.

Lowell & Susan were wonderfully matched, with Lowell providing the quiet, sometimes bemused foil to Susan's flamboyant & engaging presentations.  They had a wildly romantic back story...  Susan's version was that when she was recently divorced in New York City with two young boys she was seeing a shrink, who asked her what she wanted to do with her life.  Susan said she wanted to live in Paris and he said, Yes, that is what you should do...so she went to off to Paris with two young boys and (somehow) immediately met Lowell who was involved in starting up a new publication:The Paris Review.  So in a magical way she landed in the midst of exciting literary ferment, in one of the most interesting and beautiful cities in the world, at one of the best times to be there and connected with her beloved Lowell (ie).

Susan was beautiful and amazingly stylish, she pulled this off without any of the usual aids (she did not wear make- up or sneak off to NY for a an expensive haircut) she just always looked terrific.  Susan always had the most current and interesting information about what was going on and who was doing what, although this information was not always verifiable...it was always riveting.  To run into Susan in town was always an interesting experience and somehow electrified your day.  The landscape is much less interesting without her.  There are no replacements.
— Cornelia Hartman

An Absolute Love

I remember the many days Susan and I stood on Woodstock's Village Green protesting the Vietnam War.  We looked like Mutt and Jeff, and always joked that we never saw eye to eye.  Physically seeing eye to eye was impossible;  metaphorically, however, our visions resembled Siamese twins.  We stuck together through thick and thin.  Luckily, neither of us became too thick physically.

About Lowell, an absolute love, a great translator.  Lowell is one of the kindest and most gentle men I've ever known.  Lowell and Susan introduced me to two of their friends.  Arthur Samuelson and Dan Friedenberg.

Dan met Susan when she left college, (became unmatriculated) and entered the wildness of life.   Dan remembers how Susan beat him in chess.   He was most certainly devastated; perhaps, because he was a young man full of a male hormone, testosterone, which also exists in women.  Susan wanted PEACE more than anyone could imagine, except for all the people she chose to befriend.

I was lucky; she chose me and stuck with me through thick and thin.  And one of those thin times was in 1989.  My father had died; I went off to California; came back alone; we spoke and Susan knew exactly what I needed.  She made a match between me and Dan.  Often she told me not to cry “for more than a couple of hours over any man” she knew well the drama of love.  If I  cried for more than an hour over any man I would develop wrinkles, and then I'd never be able to find another man.
-- Abigail Robin

Monday, March 1, 2010

For Susan Bair - What a Gift She Gave!

Susan Bair had a good and generous heart. When she herself was not well, and physically suffering, she helped to serve meals to homeless people in Kingston. For a while, she managed her church's "Bail Fund," money donated to give to local people arrested who couldn't post their bail.

Susan, would, as they say "give you the shirt off her back." And, speaking of her shirt, and her other clothes as well - what a sense of style she had! She dressed with simple elegance. When she would go to the grocery store, she would look like a tall, handsome model that just needed to pop in and pick up something after a photo shoot!

Susan's sense of style extended to her surroundings. She could bring home found furniture, add some Library Fair offerings, and with these make a really groovy-looking room!

Susan worked in the Woodstock Library for many, many years. For a short time I worked there near her. Libraries can be a haven for people who are socially fragile and sometimes difficult to get along with. Where some of the staff lost patience with these people Susan never did. She was completely non-judgmental and embraced everyone as her equal. She was especially fond of, and uncritical of, our free-spirited, noisy little Woodstock child library users!

I believe she got along so well with children, because she herself never lost touch with her own inner child. She loved to be a bit outrageous and enjoy the effect on others. I remember when she and Lowell lived on the mountain, and Susan and I were chatting in the yard - Susan sitting on a stump. I realized that several hundred newly-hatched spiderlings were attempting to cross over Susan's sandaled foot. "Susan!" I shouted, "lots of spiders are climbing over your foot!" She stared me down steely-eyed, didn't move, and said, "So? I like spiders!"

Susan would swoop down the mountain in her yellow Jeep, pick me up, and show me Woodstock's magical places; hidden ponds, waterfalls, and where the wild strawberries grew in such profusion amidst silvery lichens on sun-exposed rocks at the old Gilmore property - a person could pick jars and jars of them - enough to make jam or even pies!

Susan was so bright, and so knowledgeable regarding music, art, politics, history and religion. For many years she worked on a special project of cataloguing all the music books and holdings for the Woodstock Library.

Susan was always very strong, athletic, and a terrific swimmer. She was always seeking out exciting new places to swim around Woodstock. One of her more unique concepts was to obtain a fishing license for the Ashokan Reservoir, park, go down to a secluded cove, disrobe and jump right in! And so she did!

Susan had a wonderful wry sense of humor. If you were to tell her you were agitated, or feeling blue, before you knew it she'd have you laughing at the absurdity of the situation, and you'd be feeling very much better. What a gift she gave! I will miss her forever.

Miriam Sanders
Woodstock